I'm a longtime reader who thought I'd never have a reason to write since I'm universally known as the "good girl," but I'm not sure who else I can turn to. I have a close male friend. Even though I knew he was dating someone else, we became friends-with-benefits several years ago. Because of his relationship (and the fact that he lives with her!), I let him take the lead. Sometimes when we'd be together, it felt like a booty call; other times, it felt like it was leading to something more. He once admitted that if things were different, he could see us together. A while ago I discovered that while he was unfaithful to his girlfriend, he had also been unfaithful to me.
On to the point: He recently proposed to his girlfriend. I'm happy for him if it's what he truly wants, but I feel like he did it out of desperation — there were some ultimatums involved. My dilemma: I don't want to out myself, I don't want to hurt him, and I don't want to ruin our friendship, but she has to know what her fiancé is really like before they get married. I don't see his cheating stopping just because they've exchanged vows. Should I anonymously contact her and let her know that her man is a cheating man-whore?
One Of Many Other Women
Gee … it must have come as a real shock when you realized that a man who was capable of cheating on his live-in girlfriend was also capable of cheating on the girl with whom he was cheating on his live-in girlfriend. No one could've predicted, huh?
On to your question: I hate to think of some poor woman marrying a cheating piece of shit (CPOS) in ignorance. It's possible that the CPOS's fiancée already knows and has forgiven him; perhaps one of those ultimatums touched on cheating. Odds are better that this woman doesn't know, and someone really ought to clue her in before the wedding. But should that person be you?
I'm not comfortable with your motives, OOMOW. You may be known throughout the universe as a "good girl," but your actions prove that you're something of a "bad girl." Your desire to destroy your FWB's relationship proves that you're something of a "vindictive girl," your attempt to pass your vindictiveness off as concern for a woman you've repeatedly wronged proves that you're a "self-deluding girl" and your desire to accomplish all of this without paying any price — you don't want to out yourself or risk ruining your "friendship" with the man-whore — proves that you're a "selfish girl" and a "cowardly girl."
Back to your motives: The reason you want to do this anonymously is because your top concern is having the CPOS all to yourself, and that means sticking a knife in his current relationship without leaving any fingerprints. So it's a good thing — a useful thing — that you weren't the only "other woman" in his life, because he'll never know for sure which one of his other women ratted him out.
Setting your highly suspect motives aside, if I were in the fiancée's shoes, I would want to know what was going on before the wedding. So I do think you should tell her. But if you have the tiniest shred of decency, you will tell her personally, apologize profusely and provide her with some proof. An anonymous tip won't cut it: A CPOS who has successfully hidden a collection of other women from his fiancée will be able to talk his way out of an anonymous accusation of infidelity. He'll either claim the e-mail was sent by a vindictive ex-girlfriend of his, which has the benefit of being very nearly true, or he'll claim that an ex-boyfriend of hers is trying to destroy her happiness.
Finally, why do you want to be with the CPOS? He cheated on his fiancée, he cheated on you, and he probably cheated on the women who he was cheating on the both of you with. He's a piece of shit, his fiancée is a fool, and you're a vindictive, self-deluding, selfish coward. I'm not sure if you can all do better, or that any of you deserve better, but I do think you should all try.
I'm a hetero girl in my 20s. I love masturbating, but a lot of the time I get nothing from hetero porn. Usually it's because I can't stand the girls' annoying voices. So I rely on gay porn instead, even when I'm reading erotica. I tend to go for what you gay guys call "twinks." (Who the hell is a twink, technically speaking? Please don't tell me it's anything statutory!) I'm not really concerned, I'm just curious: Is this a common problem? I now get really intrigued when I meet gay guys in real life because I get off to so many gay men in porn. I would love to watch two twinks in reality at some point, but I'm not sure if any gay guys would ever be into that.
Twinks are boyish gay men — boyish men, not boyish boys — in their late teens to mid-20s with slim-to-slightly-muscular bodies and relatively hairless chins, chests, crotches, etc. So long as you're getting your live-action porn from reputable porn sites and companies, TL, you don't have anything to worry about on the statutory front.
As for watching a couple of twinks go at it, there are lots of bisexual twinks out there — perhaps you could date one and have the odd three-way with others? There are also, without a doubt, some twink gay couples out there as turned on by the idea of a straight girl watching them go at it as you are turned on by the idea of watching a couple of twinks go at it. And thanks to the World Wide Interfluffer, finding them — or renting them — is easier than ever.